Confessionals

[Tina Wesson]

Winning two challenges in a row was a bad move this early. I think that is what drew a target on my back. Luckily I had the idol to save myself the second I lost. Matt tipped me off and I knew I had to use it to save myself and it was the perfect opportunity to take out a threat such as Jay. I doubt I will get respect for it or for anything at this point - but I am still a fighter.

This last challenge was a struggle for me. It proved to be too difficult with my connection speed and I just was not able to load the pages fast enough so I got a big 0.

Matt is playing this game for Jury votes - but does he not know it will all come to be revealed at the end? He is skating by slowly right now but all his dirty laundry will be aired out. I am aware of his vote flipping to stay good with both sides. It is always known by the vote numbers. Matt is playing a sneaky game and I hope that I am not the only on who sees that.

I am back in a good situation with Alexis. I am glad she and I have been able to work together the past round. She and Danni are two of the people I trust the most right now and I trust Matt to an extent. I know that he is only looking out for himself and he will need to be cut soon.

[Tina Wesson]

I think that after this round it may be beneficial to lose one more challenge and then pick up another small row of wins to make the end of the game. If I can do that then I will make finals and be able to tell the Jury why I deserve to win. I have not been the most strategic person in this game but I am a very physical player and have made long lasting connections.

The same cannot be said for my Luoba counterparts with the exception of Alexis at this stage. Jonas is only floating at the moment and if I could have it my way he would be well out the way in the next round or so. I feel that he does not deserve to make it further.

My ideal ending would not include Danni or Matt. If Danni or Matt are in the end of this game, they will win the entire thing. I would vote for either of them to win. Danni has been an underdog in this game and has flipped everything in her favor from time to time. Matt has been very crafty and has manipulated others to get into a good spot.

I feel that I have been a very physical player in this game but also very observant. I can see where people lie and I can decipher when I need to win challenges and when I shouldn't. I'm adaptive and if I can win my way to the end then I think I should be given some respect for the effort. But I am realistic - I know that this will be a semi-bitter jury.

[Tina Wesson]

I changed my mind on losing and throwing another challenge. It was important to win one like this to make sure I made it closer to the end. I need to go on a run of immunity victories to make it to the finals now. I have the most wins and that is a very big reason to boot someone.

I had some chats with Danni and Alexis and have discussed taking out Matt soon and also making an alliance with the three of us. I want us three to go to the end at this stage. I am cautious of Alexis - she has gone back on her word times before - if she does it anymore than I will have to rule her out much like Jonas. The only person who has shown me trust is Danni.

Matt has used everyone in this game as a pawn - he will not win this game if he makes it to the end. I can not see people getting over betrayal. It is clear he is playing all sides of the game. Danni and I discussed this and taking him out. But - would taking him to the end be smart?

I do not think I have hurt or helped many of those on the Jury. That could give me an easy win in the end with my win record and my perception on the game.

This round will determine how the game plays out. My fate is in the balance.

[Tina Wesson]

Danni says it is beneficial to keep Jonas around because him and Alexis want eachother out. I do not agree with this. There is always the potential that they could team up because if anyone knows how they worked on Luoba it is me. They are off and on all the time.

Alexis usually comes to me about the vote and she has not this time. We spoke about taking out Jonas last night but she has not come to confirm anything with me. Danni is telling me that we should vote out Rory because he is like Lisa in that he will drag his knuckles to the end.

I am very cautious and have an unsettling sensation in my stomach. I hope that everything happens the way it should and that Rory will go. I am just thankful I am safe tonight.

[Tina Wesson]

Rory is pushing for Matt to go - and now Jonas is too.

Let me make one thing clear. I do not like Jonas. I feel that he does not deserve to be here at this point in the game and that he has very much overstayed his welcome. I do not feel right voting with someone who tried to vote me out twice a few rounds ago. Why would I side with them while the person they are targeted has done much more than they have for me?

Do not get me wrong. I do not like the way Matt has been playing this game. He has been playing sides back and forth and has been lying and deceiving to make it this far. Incredible but stupid as most jurors these days are nothing short of bitter. He's been gambling since Day 1.

Well because I am a woman of repayment and if you scratch my back, I'll scratch yours... Matt is about to get lucky. I'm paying off my debt - and that is my debt to Matt.

Matt gave me the push to find the Luoba idol and he clued me in on when to play it. Since he is now in the same position - I feel that it is only fair to tell him to play his and I'll leave it up to him to decide if he wants to. Rory might make a semi decent case to oust Matt - but tell me - what has Rory done for me? He just started speaking to me when he only needed me and like Jonas - has voted me out many times and we have never once been on the same side.

I am doing this out of debt to Matt - not because I respect his game.

[Tina Wesson]

Since Jay was one of the main players targeting me and trying to get me out those rounds and I idoled him out - I think it's only karmic if Rory suffers the same fate Jay did since he tried to take out the remaining idol player. I find it amusing and I think it will be entertaining.

It is up to Matt if he wants to play it. But I will let him know that I am voting out Rory. If Matt wants to stay in this game... he will play his idol and will vote the way I want to and that is for Rory if he want to avoid a tie. After this all I need to do is win the final Immunity.

Now I need to deal with Rory's pestering and Jonas' constant nagging. Did I tell you that Jonas is "promising" that he wouldn't vote me out next round if I happened to lose Immunity? HAH! Why on earth would I believe him. I have semi clued Alexis in on the smart side of keeping Matt as he is more than likely despised by the jurors and taking him to the end would be smart for anyone sitting next to him. Alexis has lied to me about votes - so at least I am hinting to her.

[Tina Wesson]

I could just vote Matt with everyone else and have Matt play the idol and just take out Rory - but that would be taking a play out of Matt's playbook and deceiving for no reason.

So I will be voting Rory tonight.

[Tina Wesson]

I do not want to be the person that gives up before they even start but there is no chance of me winning this competition. It is the start of the week and I am hardly on the computer with how much is going on in my real life. I just need to hope that Alexis and Jonas would be okay with voting out Matt - but if Matt wins this competition then it is almost a guarantee that I will get voted out right before the finale. That is the part that crushes me to my core.

In the event that Matt does win I will have to work the only angle that I have in my vault and that's that Alexis and Jonas do not like eachother and have wanted one another out.

I will attempt the challenge when I get home later but I see that there are two invisible users so two people have been on for a few hours now and I can not see myself lasting that long. Give me a puzzle - I got it! Give me a questionnaire - I got it! Give me a flash game - I got it! But endurance and hanging on as long as you can.. that is not me or where I do well.