Confessionals

[Tina Wesson]

I quite enjoy my tribe for the most part. I realize that after this first challenge we are not the strongest at live meet challenges but hope that we excel in other challenge types.

The players that I enjoy the most are Jonas and Charlie. I feel that Jonas is off to a rough start and had some problem in this first challenge with the images and my motherly instincts kicked in and I had to help him with the coding. He is a very nice person and holds conversation.

Charlie is someone that has surprised me. I did not think I would have a mature conversation with him as I have played with a Charlie in the past who used constant profanities and racial slurs but I was happy to be wrong on my past judgement of this character choice.

[Tina Wesson]

During the first challenge no one was around to help out with the exception of Jonas, Alexis, Susie, and I. Jonas and Alexis were ready to begin - as was I. But as we were about to start Susie told me that she was on her phone and didn't think she could do it after all.

I told her not to worry about it and that we could when she got to a computer.

At that moment Malcolm signed online and we had someone to do the challenge with that was at a computer. I let Susie know and when I did she reacted as if I had told her to sit on the sidelines and not further try competing. I was as nice as possible and was not rude.

I did not want her to drop a pot and waste a combination that we could have potentially needed. The rules stated this and that we had 5 minutes to pass.

Ever since then - Susie has not spoken or done anything for the game. Oh well.

[Tina Wesson]

I have a desire to work with Charlie and would not mind working with Jonas or Alexis. I have spoken to Malcolm, RC, and Tijuana but not as much as I would have liked to.

I am admittedly annoyed by Tyson today. He has come on finally but must expect me and possibly others to approach him and not vice versa when he was the one who did not compete.

I hope that I grow to like Tyson because I don't like the feel of ill will but him going next would not trouble me. In fact if we do lose - there is a grand chance I will pursue his dismissal.

[Tina Wesson]

Tijuana just showed me this evening that she is here to play the game. She is a tough little warrior and I enjoyed working with her in this competition. A few minutes before and after we talked about the possibility that if we lose - what would we do? Her answer was blunt and it was Tyson. I agreed instantly. I am glad to find her on the same page as me with the vote.

After we finished the challenge I spoke more with Jonas like I do on a daily basis. I adore Jonas and feel like a mother to him. I felt that we have spoken enough and got to know eachother enough that it was time to make an alliance between us so I proposed one and he agreed to it.

Making alliances is what I enjoy in the game of Survivor. Not so much making alliances to just make them and get ahead but to make them with people you like and know you can trust. I want the people that are deserving to make the end and have a good, positive attitude to indeed make it far. Jonas is one of those people and so are Charlie and Tijuana.

Jonas is in with booting Tyson this round should we lose as he and I agree that Tyson is one dimensional, self absorbed, and can not hold a conversation for long than five minutes. Tijuana already gave her vote to the cause in booting him which means that I have to talk to Charlie. I don't like sending campaigns or alliance proposals over the board but I PMed Charlie and outlined everything to push the boot of Tyson as well as propose an alliance between him and I.

My hope is that a group alliance will come together if the Tyson vote is successful and that way everyone is together as opposed to me having individual deals with them.

The goal now is to get one more person to want Tyson out. I do not trust Malcolm's campaigning from last round to boot Susie over Tyson or RC's vocality of loving Tyson the first night she met him. Alexis seems like the key vote here and have asked to talk to her soon!

[Tina Wesson]

Malcolm has become a very entitled person and I feel that when I speak to him he is talking to me as if I don't know how to play Survivor. I just endured a lecture of how it's important to "cut throats" of people you can't trust before the merge. That's an interesting subject..

I guess that means I have to cut the throats of him and Tyson before making it there.

While it seems negative for me to ponder over what I want to happen if we go to Tribal Council or even campaigning for Tyson to go - I feel that it's a necessity as it is sometimes hard to catch people when they are online. It is better to plan ahead and get a plan in motion before it's too late. I just hope that we can get a fifth vote in time to make it happen if we should lose.

But if we can win this than I am thrilled for the tribe. But that does not mean my plans for Tyson's boot are scrapped - just put on the back burner for the time being.

[Tina Wesson]

I will be online some of today but sent last minute messages out to the people that I hope will vote with me to take out Tyson. I wanted to speak with Alexis last night about the vote on messenger but was unable to so I just sent it to her over the board in long detail.

It needs to be emphasized that while Tyson was strong in this round's challenge he has yet to show consistency like the rest of us. I suspect he will target Charlie or Alexis for their low score after what Malcolm lectured to me yesterday about keeping strength in but also cutting throats.

I believe that I have Charlie, Tijuana, and Jonas supporting my cause but now just need Alexis to join in and vote with us. If she votes with us then I plan to pursue this group and propose an official alliance between all of us so that we can be five strong if we should come back to tribal.

[Tina Wesson]

Alexis told me that she thinks that her and Jonas are going to vote to keep Tyson this round. Well I gave it a good shot! I think I laid out many valid points in order to take him out but if the people on my tribe want to keep him around then I am fine with that happening. If I get taken out next then they will too - because I do believe Tyson and Malcolm are close.

For Malcolm to campaign more for Tyson than Tyson is for himself is a red flag for everyone.

I am still trying and pushing it for Tyson to go but I am not putting on as much pressure as before. I know Alexis is in a tough spot so I am not going to have her upset over this. I want her to know that I support what she wants to do with her vote and am not controlling it but am just trying to plead the other side as to why Charlie should be kept over Tyson.

I do not want Charlie to go. I am glad Alexis told me that is who they were targeting because she has to know if they're targeting him for weakness.. she would have been the other option.

[Tina Wesson]

Alexis: I think jonas and I are keeping tyson. o.O Malcolm was up last night.

Tina: I just sent you a message on the board about it. Malcolm campaigned to keep Tyson? That just validates everything I suspected. He did last round to. He campaigns more for Tyson than Tyson does for himself.

Alexis: Well he could be lying but he said he swore he didn't have an alliance with him and RC wanted to vote with majority.

Tina: The majority could go either way at this point I suppose now. The reason I thought we could get a group together in this vote was because Charlie and Tijuana spoke out against Tyson last round so I thought they would be in for the vote, and I speak to Jonas often when I am on, and you and I connected the first round and thought we could make this happen.

Tina: I really do feel there is an alliance there because no one campaigns that hard for someone to stay twice in a row. Tyson did well in the challenge but everyone competed and everyone competed last round except Tyson.

Tina: We have all been consistent and trying to help the tribe and last round you did a lot for the combinations, I posted often for the challenge as did RC and Charlie.

Tina: I understand if you want to keep him and I am okay with that I just think it's a bad move to keep Tyson in with Malcolm when it appears to be shady and they appear to be linked.

Alexis: i know i know. I bonded to you as well. And he is targetting Charlie because he needs my vote.

Tina: I don't understand that I really don't. Charlie did great last challenge and did try this challenge.

Alexis: Charlie found 4 tiles, I found 2. He found more than me.

Tina: So if next round you or I did bad in the challenge he would target you or me. I don't like that mentality.

Alexis: It sucks because I don't know who the weak link is.

Tina: I'm looking at the bigger picture and I think Tyson is the weakest but also has the possible connections that puts him over the edge for me.

Tina: He did very well this challenge but did 0 last challenge. Who is to say he won't work long hours this weekend when we could have another challenge?

Tina: I don't want to base real work hours on things but if he works that many hours you have to take it into account for the long term.

Alexis: True ugh.

Tina: Sweetie ugh look. I don't want to pressure you okay? Just do what you think you need to do. I just wanted to plead what i thought to you as well if Malcolm was up all night doing it for Tyson.

Alexis: can you be on at 230 EST? we will have a heart to heart.

Tina: I will be here and talk to you then hun.

[Tina Wesson]

I think I just cemented that Tyson will be leaving with 5 votes. I spoke to Alexis and she told me her main concern was that she and Jonas were stuck between two F3 alliances. I assured her that I had no F3 alliance with Charlie and Tijuana. I got honest with her and told her how I connected with she and Jonas the first challenge and how I said that to Jonas yesterday and was interested in making an official alliance with him and that I also wanted to include her in it.

This alliance would make us a threesome after Tyson left, and that would leave Malcolm and RC as a twosome, and Tijuana and Charlie as a possible twosome. This way we pull the reigns and control what happens and who we side with after this vote. What Jonas and Alexis don't really know is that I am close with Charlie and have an alliance with him on the tribe.

If Alexis and Jonas keep Charlie then that puts me in a great position and puts Malcolm in a worse position. I have sent a message to Jonas about Alexis' and my conversation and Alexis said she would as well and that she is fine with the scenario I pitched to her. I hope that I successfully changed the tides back to the way things were and that Tyson ends up leaving.

[Tina Wesson]

I am in a very rough spot right now.

I went forth to try and save a person I thought deserved to stay and it backfired. I made a mistake and now I just may pay the price. One can only hope I survive this.

I still very much care for Jonas and appreciate it him still coming to me and talking to me. Even if he is not being honest with me that he wants to still work with me and be close and take out Tyson next round if Alexis is on board - then I thank him for at least humoring me and giving me hope. I went to him and Alexis and assured no hard feelings between us.

I know that my bridges are burned with Malcolm and I do not expect to change any perception he has of me as I feel that I won't change mine of him - the same goes for Tyson. But I did feel the need to address RC and apologize because I did exclude her from what was said about her possible closeness to Tyson. Instead she replied aggressively so I didn't give her a response.

I tried to extend an olive branch. All you can do is try.

[Tina Wesson]

I can not put all my faith in Jonas and Alexis again because look what happened this past round. It is time for me to take matters into my own hands and fight for survival.

How can I do this..

I feel that with numbers dwindling over here - all I can do is possibly voice my vulnerability and portray my bottom position to the other tribe in hopes that one or some can help me.

I am aware that we voted Ashley to go to the Jungle and that we also sent Matt. If I can talk to one of them or both of them and try and genuinely express that I am in a dire spot and need to make a move that could also help them in this game by taking out someone like Tyson... then I need to do it. Truth is both could have gone and been unsuccessful in finding anything and could not buy anything I tell them and just laugh at me - but it's worth a shot.

I think with how low I feel and how helpless I feel... it will come across when I talk to them and they could end up helping me with anything they could have found to get an idol.

[Tina Wesson]

Tyson parading around with my vote for him in his signature may help with the plan to put across that I am at the bottom and need to change things up. Tyson is showing everyone how arrogant he can be and that may help in my favor in trying to get help from Menba.

I will not PM them as I feel this is needs to be done on messenger. I plan to put this into action tomorrow. I am nervous that this could also backfire and my tribe could be notified... but I'm already outcasted by some of them - so what do I have to lose? I have to give it a shot.

I am not going to tell anyone about my efforts or any information I could acquire.

This needs to stay under lock and key for the time being.

[Tina Wesson]

I am talking to Matt now and I am going to try and get what I can from him. I am telling him everything I know about this tribe and letting him know the tribe dynamic. I am telling him how Malcolm campaigns for Tyson, how Jonas and Alexis flip flop, how I am on the bottom with Tijuana, and how RC isn't letting me explain my reason to target Tyson last round.

I need him to believe me and I need him to tell Menba all about the dynamic over here so that if I do go then he can take them all out of this game. He will be able to use this information to his advantage and there is a chance that he could help me out too with idol searching...

[Tina Wesson]

I am so anxious right now.

This is a good conversation but nothing is coming from it. I am giving everything I can and everything I know and am getting nothing in return. Matt is a very nice boy and he is understanding and sympathizing with me but that is all that is happening.

I am going to keep going as long as I can until one of us has to go. He has to see that I need this miracle to stay in the game and if he has any input or any clue on how to find an idol then I could very much use it and he and Menba could use me to their advantage.

[Tina Wesson]

Tina: I know it would be really entertaining too. I would go next more than likely if we were to lose again assuming we would lose this round. It goes with what i said before, a big first and final move for me but I would enjoy every second of it.

Matt: I would enjoy it, too. You might actually be surprised with how simple the idol is to find...

Matt: Even though the tasks are challenging. The clues can be put together.

Tina: Are their many clues?? Did you find some? I wonder if they are different for each tribe though.

Matt: Everything I'm saying stays between me and you, right?

Tina: Okay Matt I swear and promise on everything I am and love!