Episode 8

[Danni Boatwright]

Praise Jesus! Brandon has finally gotten the boot out the door! I have waited for this moment for so long. It has just been a complete virus and disease to me. He drove me crazy and I can more forward in this game. Abi and Jonas were the only ones who didn't know the vote was Brandon. I tried my best to make them not target me. Abi understood why I didn't tell her and why I flipped. Abi says she still wants us to stick together at the merge. I don't buy that at all. Abi is smart and she knows I have a tight alliance with Matt and Jay. I can see her trying to break us up. Jonas on the other hand is a very annoying player. Like dude come on share your fucking feelings and thoughts! I like the guy outside this game but he is the type of person who just wants you to bring up game talk. He never talks strategy at all and keeps to himself. Going into this merge is very tricky for me. I have a lot of people that I need to look out for. We have Matt, Jay, Alexis, Tina, Tijuana, and Rory. Abi, Lisa and Jonas are completely useless to me. While R.C. is over here riding Jay's coattails. As soon as we merge Jay tells me Jonas or Alexis needs to go out first. If not them then someone from the old Luoba tribe. I don't think tribal lines are in this game anymore. I don't see old Luoba teaming up at all. I don't mind voting for Jonas because he is a threat but Alexis needs to stay for at least a couple more rounds. What do you know! They both end up winning immunity which means, Jonas is safe. Jay then wants the vote to be Tijuana. I have a final 4 alliance with Tijuana and I would like to honor it in someway. So I say no I am not voting for her, how about RC? He says RC has to stay because she will vote Jonas out. So then why not Lisa? Or Abi? No because they were part of our old tribe. Well I trust Tina, Alexis and Tijuana a heck of a lot more then Abi and Lisa! Jay right now is being stubborn and won't hear anyone out! Well I decided to make up my own plan and get me some numbers to get Abi, Lisa or RC out myself. Without Jay's vote! Alexis is someone I know and get along with really well. I want her to trust me and to latch onto me. So I told her the whole truth about Jay's plan. That he wanted to get rid of her and how she is just a number. I am not sure if this was a stupid or smart move for me. It could ruin my relationship with Jay. I then tell her how I don't want to vote for Tijuana because I don't want to just drop her in the trash after she helped me get rid of Brandon. Alexis says she is open in voting for Abi and that RC has thought about voting for Abi. We agreed that if the vote switches to Abi, this has to be down behind Jay's back! I then go do a little bit campaigning. RC isn't as much as a follower as I originally thought. She knows Jay wants Tijuana out first to cover his bases. I really do believe Jay calling the shots here is for selfish reasons. It makes zero sense for me to vote out Tijuana who is on my side over someone like Abi who will vote me out eventually. RC and Alexis are on board, Tina and Tijuana will already be on board because it saves Tijuana's ass. Rory is the next person we need for a vote. He already wanted Abi out and he is fine doing it behind Jay's back. I then decide I need to tell Matt about this and he totally agrees with me. He doesn't want to turn on our final 4 alliance with Tina and Tijuana. He realizes Jay is being selfish on this vote. My relationship with Abi has gotten better. I know I hated her right away but she has grown on me, and I do feel bad the way I judged her right off the bat. But then again we don't talk game or connect really well. I almost feel bad voting for her out already. This vote reminds me of Survivor Samoa when they voted Erik out all last minute. Me, Matt, Alexis, RC, and Rory were all scrambling behind Jay's back to flip this vote. I do realize this could ruin my alliance with Jay. But keep in mind that I am not voting for Jay and Jay is not even close with Abi! I had to lie to Jay and say I am voting Tijuana out. I am nervous for the results if my plan does work. I could have taken the easy road and just listened to Jay. Vote Tijuana and maybe go really far. But I want to take my own road. I hope Alexis does trust me now, I know she hates Jay now. She better be appreciative that I told her the truth about where she stood on the tribe. I am making a big and risky move right now saving Tijuana once again. This move could either make or break me. If this works that would mean I was part of 3 blindsides in a row! Yes I do consider myself part of the JT blindside since I did push for it to Jay. Going against Jay this round doesn't mean I want to break my alliance with him. It may end but it shouldn't. Jay just needs to learn that I have to be in control and not him! Why can't he get that? Matt does!