Confessionals

[Ashley Underwood]

CONFESSIONS OF ASHLEY UNDERWOOD



Welcome to my confessional!

This where I will reveal my oh-so devious plans to you, and give you insight on where my head is at and the game from my point of view. Enjoy...

EPISODE ONE

My initial plan going into this game is to just get to know my tribe, to get even the smallest feel for who they are as people and try to use that to figure out how I'm going to manage my game.

Basically I spoke to all on the tribe but Jay, and these are my opinions on those who I did speak to:

Abi: Lol I wish I would have logged the conversation between myself and Abi because I could confidently call it one the worst representations of my social skills. I'm not sure how she felt about it, but I felt as if I were constantly talking about myself and completely, unintentionally coming off as uppity and shallow. I really hope I could do some damage control or she didn't feel the same way because it was just...laughably bad

Brandon: He seems alright. Our conversation was pretty cool, but I mean...how good can a person who plays as Brandon be?

I do like him, though.

Danni: So far Danni is my favorite person on the tribe. She was probably the only person who I actually had a fun conversation with and actually connected with in the slightest. I have a good feeling about Danni.

Jay: Haven't seen him around, borrrrring . He also managed to annoy me on the board too, way to make a first impression, Jay.

JT: Oh, I lied, JT was fun to talk to, too. Aside from the Giants-hatred and Patriots-fannism, I like him.

Lisa: I spoke to her for a while, and I like her, but meh, our conversations are generic, useless, game-and-work talk.

Matt: I think I spoke to him for like a minute, so yeah nothing to tell here.

Rory: A lot different in conversation than on the board, weird. Didn't talk too much with him.

So as a whole, I like my tribe so far, but I hope that as time goes on things became more defined and I start to have conversations that don't revolve around the regular "hey, how are you" thing.

Overall we seem pretty active and I'm confident we'll kick some ass.

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[Carlos Bernard]

I would argue that Brandon comment. I've heard of a pretty awesome Brandon.

[Ashley Underwood]

So I'm really feelin' this tribe. We're all really active and we kicked some MAJOR ass in this challenge. Our post count is significantly higher than theirs.

The only thing that's concerning is that I have no idea if there are any dynamics yet. Since I've had no talk of any alliance, I'm just hoping that nobody else has because then that means I'm out of it. I'm gonna continue just talking to everybody and figuring out what I could do to put myself in a comfortable position.

Since yesterday, I've spoken a little bit more to some of the people on my tribe. Basically, ABI continues to be kinda cold, I don't know if it's just me, but I don't know, nothing here. I'm retracting my complaints about JAY because I realized it was my fault that he was never online. I accidentally put in his AIM wrong and therefore never saw him online. He's also pretty cool. MATT and RORY are nice, nothing to talk about here.

Now Brandon's a different story. I said something about how I wanna eat but I'm counting calories or something, then we started talking about gaining weight, then that's where he compared me to Nicki Minaj.

Basically, I don't CARE that he likes Nicki Minaj, despite the awful opinions he now seems to hold, but I do care that he cares that I don't like her and asked why I didn't "worship" her. Also, he implied I'm ugly, not cool. I don't know, read for yourself.

Brandon (2:25:22 PM):Lol, well I wish you the best! And if for whatever unfortunate reason that you gain the weight back, I hope it goes all in your curves. You can be the next Nikki Minaj!
Ashley Underwood (2:25:47 PM):bleh I'd rather die
Ashley Underwood (2:25:56 PM):not the curves part, the Nicki Minaj part
Brandon (2:26:18 PM)::-(
Brandon (2:26:30 PM):Umm I don't know if we can be friends, I'm kind of obsessed with her.
Ashley Underwood (2:28:08 PM):hahahaha oh man
Brandon (2:29:21 PM):Why don't you worship the goddess?
Ashley Underwood (2:30:25 PM):Because I don't think she has talent. She works through the awful synthesized music industry that has been developed and glorified. Nothing about her voice is appealing and neither are her songs that talk about the most vapid, typical things.

Also her rivarly with Mariah isn't doing her any favors
Brandon (2:31:11 PM):Umm She writes her own stuff, and can rap better than any female I've ever heard!
Ashley Underwood (2:31:31 PM):she ain't no Lisa "Left Eye" Lopes
Brandon (2:33:01 PM):I don't know who that is.
Brandon (2:33:02 PM):Haha
Ashley Underwood (2:34:03 PM):lol well who's fault is that :-P

She wears these ridiculous outfits that are so contrived and nothing about it is sexy or appealing, she has no respect for an icon, and acts so unbelievably ghetto :-)
Brandon (2:34:18 PM):Umm Are you a girl?
Ashley Underwood (2:34:30 PM):It'd be pretty sad if I were a 5'1 guy
Brandon (2:34:39 PM):Lol, it's possible.
Brandon (2:34:43 PM):Well; I have a theory.
Ashley Underwood (2:34:50 PM):oh I'd LOVE to hear this
Brandon (2:35:28 PM):She is sexy (because the world and I say so) and You are jealous because she is superstar fame and international fans, so you hate on her and decide to idolize people who you are better looking than such as someone by the name of "left eye"
Brandon (2:35:36 PM):Am I right? ;-)
Ashley Underwood (2:38:11 PM):2 things:

1. I'm more attractive than Nicki. Sorry, but it's true.

2. Left Eye, of the ICONIC TLC, was very pretty when she was alive

3. Mariah Carey, Fiona Apple, Sheryl Crow, who I idolize, are much more attractive that Nicki
Brandon (2:38:59 PM):Umm Mariah and Sherly and idk who Fiona is are not more attractive than the queen of rap.
Brandon (2:39:11 PM):I'd love to continue this bitch fest with you But I gotta run.
Ashley Underwood (2:39:34 PM):oh this will be continued. We'll further discuss this mess later.;
Brandon (2:39:43 PM):For sure
ExpressiveArcher signed off at 2:39:59 PM

Yeah, Brandon turned out to be an issue...

[Ashley Underwood]

Jan 4, 2013 20:48:54 GMT -5 Carlos Bernard said:

I would argue that Brandon comment. I've heard of a pretty awesome Brandon.

I've never.

[Ashley Underwood]

And with Susie down...only 17 to go

EPISODE TWO

So when I spoke to Brandon again and jokingly brought up the argument with an insult to Nicki Minaj, he immediately responded with "and with that, I gotta go" . So I actually don't think he thinks the argument is that funny. I actually think he's pretty passionate about it and may actually be offended by my words.



Yeah, and another concerning thing other than my apparent pariah-ability is that I'm pretty clueless about any alliances. I mean, there are games where stuff like that takes a day, and some where it takes some more time. I'm just hoping that it's the former because then I'm in a really crappy position. If it's the latter, I should stop being such a pussy and make the first move.

I mean, does nobody like me??

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[Ashley Underwood]

EPISODE THREE

Ugh I'm totally bummed that we're forced to vote somebody out due to luck challenge , but as long as I stick around I guess I'm fine.

I'm more bummed that I have no allies to feel comfortable with. Luckily, it seems that there aren't any big alliances floating around, at least according to others on the tribe, so I'm thinking it's time for me to strike.

In my quest to create an alliance that will leave me in a good position, I've found out that my tribe is so dead-set on unity that it's not an easy task.

From here on I'm hoping to create some sort of thing with JT and Danni, since they're the only people on the tribe that aren't unbelievably robotic.

[Ashley Underwood]

Oh great. Its supposedly me for no apparent reason.

Isn't that convenient

[Ashley Underwood]

Just for a brief (and late) goodbye message:

I apologize deeply for whatever I said about Abi being cold since she was easily the most genuine person out here. I completely misread her as a person.

...that's really it!